Breathe Me - Sia
This song has been played 272 times in my itunes. And for every time that the song has been played, it was played for my sadness. The song provokes my inner weakness; it brings out from within me the pain that I tend ignore. Sometimes I just have to let it out.
I play this song whenever I'm feeling sad, lonely, helpless, lost, or in emotional pain.
The first verse is the hardest to accept. I can only play this song when I've accepted my mistakes as my own doing. And commonly, I make the same the mistakes over and over again, hence the "I have been here many times before." The pain I feel is mine, and usually it's self inflicting - never directly and not physically - but the risks I take are my decision and the backfire is for me to endure because I made that decision.
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame
Be my friendThis is the confession of weakness. A friend, comfort, security, warmth - these are the things I need in a time like this. The strongest line to me is "and breathe me" as in breathe life into me because I've lost it all. Sometimes that's what I need, I need someone to breathe life into me when I feel as if I can't stand on my own two feet anymore.
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
272 moments of sadness seems like a lot for an 18 year-old girl, but don't worry - the number's high because I put it on repeat!
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ReplyDeleteI think everyone has that song that they listen to so that they can just "get it all out." I've never heard this one, so thank you for sharing. And really, we all make dumb mistakes. It shows maturity that you are willing to accept responsibility instead of blaming others. But don't take it too far! Accept and move on. :)